It's been a rather happening 2 weeks since I returned from Shanghai. Busy in the office and also meeting up / catching up with several people. It's always good to meet up with people. Within these 2 weeks, I reached a few personal milestones.

Milestone 1: Brought Lynn to meet my dad during reunion dinner nite. Always wanted to introduce my love to my father before the rest of the relatives get to see her *to honour him mah* and glad that I could do so. The meeting went well. Needless to say, my relatives were also happy to see her around.

Milestone 2: Lynn brought me to visit her parents and family. =)

Milestone 3: I was looking for a group of friends for support when I'm in Shanghai. Really thank God that on the first night of CNY, managed to meet up with Daniel aka Howe Kiat and it's all thanks to Adrian for bringing me to meet his ol' buddy. Cool, now I can go to church if I'm in Shanghai for the weekend

Milestone 4: Went for baptism service last night. No, I'm already baptised. It's just that I felt rather out of sorts these past few weeks. I thank God for the opportunity to speak to my team leader about my desire to move on. Next step, boss. However, there is this fear of man syndrome in me which probably explains why I have delayed doing what I should have done long ago. Really glad for the worship during baptism service where God reminded me of His faithfulness through the songs and also that He will not shortchange me. Also grateful that God used CK to send me a wake-up call.

Watched Dreamgals today. I liked the musical element in it although I'm not sure Darren and Moon would agree. Interestingly, the theme was also somewhat about that person inside. Over lunch this week, CK also encouraged me to really ask myself what I really want in my heart. What are my guiding principles? Do I really believe that ministry comes first? Or career? Or it's possible to balance both?

Honestly, with my current job, it's not possible for me to balance ministry and work. I have tried but given my erratic schedule, it's not working out. At the same time, I feel that while I try to do my best, my heart is not in my current role because I feel stifled. I need a new start. I need to grow. I need to bring it up to my boss. I need to move on.

Lord, grant me that confidence that I need to dispel the self-doubts that clutter my mind. Grant me wisdom to adapt but to remain grounded in You. Let me soar once more on eagle's wings.

Amen. Shanghai, here I come (again). Pray for me ok? To find the right time to speak to my boss when he visits Shanghai the following week. Thanks :)